TiMe ThRoUgH aN HoUrGlaSs

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Yo... finally back due to some strong advice by some piglet... :P niwae... i would like to apologize to all the teachers whom i had slept in his/her lessons... really cannot control... when teacher teaching... my eyelids will start to drop... then my head will nod when i start to doze off... if not i straight away put my heavy head on the table and snore away... y? coz i started this week badly... real badly... slept at 11pm on sunday... thus cause me to have insufficient sleep for the subsequent days... especially when i got 4-5 tests in this week... then keep study till almost 12-1am everynite... not i dun wan to study in the day... but busy doing my cca stuff... k... fine... plus slacking a bit... so result in me sleeping so late...
niwae... think i better sleep well over this weekend... and also pack my file and desk... coz i'm a neat-freak... if my desk too messy... i take a lot of effort of trying to concentrate... in another words... can't concentrate.... everytime in class... almost after every lesson.. i will take out my dear blue file and file the ws chers gave me into diff. slots... can't stand my ws all chunk up in one pile... still rmb got one time... think in term 2... was having mrs yeo's chem lesson... then the space under my desk... ( the place u stuff ur textbks) .... a pile of ws ... then i just couldn't concentrate lor... like feel very uneasy like that... so i took out my file and try to slots in some of the ws... less messy mah... then mrs yeo saw me then scolded me... :( lolx... me bery strange hor...
niwae... mr singh came and took over mdm chong ( who is on maternal leave) as our cca cher-in-charge... he completely changed our working system. took me quite some time to get used to it... niwae... we now training the lower secs... jacob trained them for half a year liao... but still got a lot blur blur one.. disappointed sia... *vomit blood* really hope they can wake up one day... and be more hardworking..
if someone ever ask me is it easy to be a vice-chair or chairman... the answer is no... first... u have to be strict and firm... u muz noe when u need to give order and scoldings... and when to be a little relaxed... then... u need to do a lot of planning and admin. stuff... like for me... i currently have to handle the sva(school video award) admin. and script stuff... the cca duties... the lower sec training.. admin. stuff for mr singh... and also to contol the discipline... do u noe that its not easy even to scold ur juniors.. i mean ... if u r not used to scolding... u have to raise ur voice... have to balance bet. good and bad.... but also control ur temper and not get too carried away...and sometime after u punish someone... that someone will come complaining to u that another person also doing the same mistake as them... is like the cycle of scolding over and over again.. sometimes i just felt that i'm teaching a bunch of pri. sch students... wonder if i'm like that last time... hmm.... niwae... me now also like training the sec 2s to become the cca leaders of next year... only got 3 sec 2s lor... pathetic rite... haiz... then now keep giving them talks and advice on how to be a gd leader... blah blah blah... i mean is not i want to be naggy... but i really hope my advice would help them in the future... coz u see... me leader for this year... but even if i do something wrongly.. there are still other sec 3s there to comfort or support me... but the sec 2s.. only 3... so if now i dun make them to be more united... then no one can help them if they have quarrels or disagreements among themselves... i hope they understand my worry... i really hope that one year... two years.. or even five years later... when i come back to css... the caa is still standing strong... haiz... starting to miss mr benny... with him around to help.. life would have been more easy now... however... if he haven't leave... i also wouldn't understand so much things about leadership and life....
haiz... its realli not easy... sometime u really wish someone could be by urside sharing your troubles and stress... that's y i often offer help or listening ears to those who need... coz its not gd to be over-stressed.. still rmb got one time i stress till over some problem that i almost commit suicide... haiz...

- sorry teachers... its not easy...
by Dj Z @ 12:12 AM